Insomnia

7 . 18 . 22.

You’d always let me stay up past my bedtime. We’d share snacks and watch stupid shows like jackass. When I couldn’t sleep you’d grab the same ceramic mug with three blue geese on it. Make me warm milk & honey. 

I can’t pinpoint the exact moment things went bad. Maybe it’s better that way. I wonder what about me you’d hate now. Maybe my nose ring. The things I have to say. How you don’t scare me anymore.

I still stay up past my bedtime, even now. I eat snacks and watch stupid shows like jackass. When I really can’t sleep, I make a mug of warm milk & honey. It reminds me of how things used to be and how parts of you live in me.